Everybody has bad days and that is ok.
After the rainy days, a
sunny day came up. Then shit happened. I got an allergic rash on my face.
"What do I do now?" Otherwise, I must put the powder and cover that
rash when I leave the house. It does not matter to me personally; I accept
myself with it. Just as I know it does not define me in any one view. I put it
exclusively for other people. Not to answer questions and not to let me ...
"Wait, wait," follows the inner monologue. "You do not want to put
the powder on the face and you look forward to leaving the house, but you will
harass and yourself and your husband while you put the powder because of other
people." This voice in my head can sometimes be wise, and I realize it's
right about this situation. I step outside without foundation, rash
kilometric-scale on-site. Without any discomfort associated with physical
appearance. It only bothers me because in moments the rash is really
tremendously painful. I go into a local store and face the salesman with a
perplexing look. I'm okay with the looks, I'm even understandable and I do not
have a reaction. Which, obviously encouraged, had grown into apparent mischief.
There I reacted, however, with a dead-cold statement that scolding my rupture
will not solve my problems. After which I stand firmly. But the theme is not
mockery. The theme is something completely different.
A few days later, the rash was gone
and I looked completely different. Nothing in elementary basic structure of my
being has changed. I'm not saying that we should not take into account the
outside of everything, even looks. But I am saying that I do sometimes have bad
hair days, old sweatpants days and no time to deal with so much these external looks.
Earlier, I would not go out with such a rash. Now I go out, whit or without a
rash, whit or without make up and I do not have any bad feelings about that. I
recently caught a friend in constant avoiding of going anywhere or even five
feet to the store, unless she was dressed up from head to toe. "There's no
way I'll go here, I'm not ready. There's no way I'll go to the concert I
worship because it's the day I work in the afternoon and I do not have time to get
dressed up and do my make-up. I have time to come, but I do not have time to get
ready. " In all this I see the failure of life that takes place before our
eyes while we are waiting when we will be good enough to make it live. Not
knowing how good we are with the fact we have it. I would like to be smart
enough to break irrelevant forms to the benefit of the essentials.
After a "physical" day, I
also had a "psychic" day. I do not remember when my last drop of
energy happened like this, but it arrived the day in which I was ready, about
four o’clock, to go to bed and wishing it was night already. Tired, simple
fatigue. To which my mind went to build a story inside my own head. "How
are you sleepy already? You cannot do that; you have things to do. You're not a
good person, just waiting for when you sleep ... blah, blah, blah. "The
quarrel with my mind passed a few hours in which I was dragged around the house
like a dead hen. Fighting between normal human tiredness and that of the
mind-set morgue - which I must now be, and I am not. Then a miracle happened
and everything I had planned that afternoon got canceled. It was a little to
say I was happy beyond any measure. "Now I can go to sleep, here, as soon
as the clock shows 19:30, to feel at least somewhat normal." Then I turned
around and watched the condition of my home, I got a cold sweat. Someone would
think that some kind of world war has just happened. I go to the table,
intending to arrange everything. The only thing I did physically, I did not
even know how, was to put the dishes in the sink. I did not wash them, I just
put them in the sink, and tried to clean the table, with no luck. Then I got in
bed, thanks to all the possible and impossible saints that everything got
canceled and that my husband came home. After thanking, instead of rest, my
mind when on a roll: "Have you seen that mess? How can you lie?
"," Shut up, do you see that I cannot even get up?! " Then I
made a fatal mistake. If you ever think that social networking is a good way to
calm your mind, you get this idea out of your mind right now. "Look,
everyone’s house is clean. All are wearing makeup and have perfect filters.
They drink cocktails on the beach, they do not have a rash. They do not have a
day when they are tired of fatigue and lie like a hen. They are all good. Do
you see that, you lazy bum? "Luckily, I was quick to awaken.
"Hahahahaha, go to your own profile. What would someone say now if thez
would look at your profile? The same thing! You and your life are perfect!"
What is the point? The point is that
we all have days of bad, messy hair, rashes, bad wills. We all go through the
life filters, which must be recognized is only interesting just because of
these filters. Therefore, give your mind a big slap and slap his even more if
you are caught in pajamas day and go on social networks. Wear yourself with
love and understanding during the tip of the top days and during the bad and
messy days. Do not miss sunsets anyway because some of you believe that you are
not ready or good enough to go out. Do not steal your own days, they are the
only thing you will never return to. Do not complain about them one day because
you believe life on social networks is real. Or how do you need to be perfect
to enjoy it. We are all perfectly imperfect. All. That's where our magic lies.
On that note have you read “My (Not So)
Perfect Life” by Sophie Kinsella? If not have a read, you will understand where
I am coming from in this blog post. Have a good one!
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