Mischievous Words

For years, I have not been living for certain dates and I do not spend weeks or months waiting for a birthday, Christmas or Valentine's Day. Not because these days you realize that time goes by and that six of this-will-be-mine -year calendar went by, and red dates smeared on the leaves of those same calendars went as if they were not red. It always seemed to me that those days that we are all so loudly counting through the internet and advents calendars would stop the world for a moment. When these days come, all hungry will get a pot of French salad or at least a basket of bread.   All too loud will be a little quiet, too quiet will speak out; the world will declare holidays for just about everyone. All the sick will be released from the hospital, all the children will laugh in their warm bed covered with a grandmother's quilt, the fluffy one under which you wake up in the same position where you are and sleep. That the crime will be stopped, unicorns will drive ins...

This is not a special year in itself. This is just the calendar turned. Therefore, if you think that this year it will make you happy, I will bet that today, the third week of this year, you slowly doubt it. I am telling you that the year by itself does not carry a magic wand. Even better, because if this year had a magic wand, it would scared you at the end. Fearing, does not the next one carry some kind of fatal wand? Because they convinced you that after laughing, there was crying. Do not trust them. Well, sure, if you want nice packaging, feel free to use the story of the all-new, fresh year. Which really gives you the empty days. The brush of the new year is in your hand. You are the one who is painting it. You choose colors, themes, and notes that you will paint in it. You will find some days that in which it will surprise you, maybe you will not like it. Do not despair; it would not give you a blank canvas, a brush in your hand, and an opportunity to paint at all if it doubte...

When I was a kid, it seemed that the real life started when you start elementary school. When you get the first class schedule, your first official assignment schedule, and then when you learn a multiplication table, and that is going to be like reaching the top of the world in your highest and thinnest high heels, but then they told me I was just ridiculous because the real life will start when I start high school. When I started high school I thought this is it because I am now a big girl who goes to a big school and who, like Blair Waldorf, can sit on the stairs of the school and drink coffee. Soon I realized that this was not it. When I started collage in a newer and bigger city, I thought I finally reached that best life time, but then they told me that it was nothing because the real life is when you have a job and you had a full pay (if you ever succeed finding a job) because then you can afford a lot more than you can afford as a “poor” student. When I started my first payin...

Now, listen to me carefully. And remember. Let this be carved into every pore of your being. If they say you're too loud, do not believe them. The ones who say that do not know how to let their own voice out so they are bothered by yours. If they say you're too quiet, do not believe it. That's what they say because they cannot hear from the noise of their own distorted importance. If they tell you that you're not normal because you have a different opinion from theirs, do not believe them. It mostly those who did not have an opinion, but live by what others perceive as normal. Thank them nicely, let them continue to be normal and someone else's. And you stay "crazy" and yours. They say you're too "difficult" to love, understand them. This will tell you those who are cannot love themselves, less alone you. They are cowards, persecuted by themselves. . Because love is never and cannot be too difficult. If you are “difficult” ...